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fresh start, hello, learning, life, love yourself, me, myself, self discovery
Hello all, I guess it’s been forever since I’ve posted..oops. Two years almost (insert blushing face here).
A lot has happened within these two years, I kind of fell off the bandwagon a couple times, got back up & here I am!
Two years ago, I moved in with my family to get myself in order, more financially than anything. Well I did, then I met a guy…(ooh ahhhh) and after a while of being “together” and then officially dating, I moved to be with him. He’s a farmer so I moved to his small town, some may arguably say it’s in the middle of nowhere. I loved it. Unfortunately it just wasn’t enough.
I have since moved back in with the family while I get myself in order, and look for a job!
I have learned some things about myself though in these couple years that have helped me accept who I am, and what life is all about. Instead of getting into nitty gritty about what I’ve done in my life, I’d like to share what I’ve learned in hopes that these insights can maybe help someone out. If not, it just feels good to write them out. (I’ve missed blogging!)
- Know when to accept help – Oh my lanta, I am stubborn, bullheaded, strongwilled etc. I have always been this way and I don’t expect me to drastically change. I have however learned when to finally admit that I do need to step down and let someone offer their help. It has helped me a lot mentally more so than anything.
- I LOVE to bake – Since 2007 I have always lived in places where I can easily go out and buy baking, at any time really. Well when I moved down to be with the boyfriend there wasn’t a huge selection of baking. The town had about 320ish people living there and once grocery store. Definitely NO Tim Hortons! Haha So I started playing farm wife and baking more and more. It got to be that when I baked, I took most of it to work because we were eating way too much! (hello extra weight!) I even received a Kitchen Aid Stand Mixer for Christmas. I was ecstatic! Haha
- Know how to give unconditional love – plain and simple as that. No ifs or buts about it.
- Know how to receive unconditional love – let go of barriers and reservations and just allow yourself to be loved. It can be the scariest thing to leave yourself so vulnerable but I firmly believe in that whole cliche saying “It’s better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all”.
- The little things matter most – If I were able to redo some things in life, I’d put more importance on the smaller things. I would be more spontanious and not worry about the everyday things so much (money, plans, gossip, etc)
- Forget about what people think – Seriously, don’t give them that power. If you care more about what people are saying about you than what is actually happening in your life then your priorities are way off. I have learnt the hard way. I’m done giving people that power. If you want something, go for it. Don’t waste time or energy wondering what people will think of it. If it makes you happy, do it!
- Learn how to let go – I admit I still haven’t fully grasped this. But it’s something that I have learned more about lately than anything else.
- Accept the things you can not change – very simply put, sometimes you can NOT change things. If it’s something you want, try your hardest, give it your all but remember that sometimes it is not going to go as you planned. Don’t give up without fighting your hardest but also know when to bow out and not fight a dying battle. Sometimes you hold on too long, or not long enough but knowing that you did everything you could is better than wondering what could have happened if you did more.
- Laugh at yourself – do it, do it now. Laugh at things you’ve done. Learn how to release embarrasment about things youve done (or didn’t do) because they are just holding you back. I am that person who can look back on things I did when I was young, and get embarrased. It sounds ridiculous I know, I have been working on letting go of the past and learning how to laugh it off. Laughter is healing.
- Quit gabbing your life away – We all have those select few friends that we talk to our lives about, some may have more than others, some may not have these people. I for one used to be an open book, I would tell most of my friends exactly what was happening and I’ve come to realize that not everyone wants or cares to hear what you’re saying. You find that out quick when something you’ve said in confidence becomes town gossip. Learn who to trust and who not to trust. I’m not saying that everyone is going to spread your stories around, just that a lot of people may not be as sincere as they seem.
There’s so many things that I’ve learned but they all are kind of centered around what I’ve explained. I am such a better person now than what I was two years ago. I find so much more enjoyment in things.
Be happy friends 🙂